I always have you

Monday, May 31, 2010

After the incident happen that day
I felt somehow weird between us.
Is it my problem or yours?
I have been asking myself.
I wonder this relationship whether there's
still love or just a 习惯.
Have you been asking yourself too?
Or am i thinking too much?
Could you tell me please,
that i have been thinking too much.
You had never ONCE
ask me, tell me or even give me anything.
I was the only one holding on to this relationship,
everything is i say than you do.
Did you ever take the initiative
to say, plan and do things by yourself.?
I was so upset, when i needed you most you were not here.
I have been tearing late at night do you know that?
Seriously i have to tell you this,
all you know is think about yourself
you will never think of other people feeling.
All i had to do is give in and stay silent.
I'm tired and i dont want to keep so much stuff inside me anymore.
I need to know the way you feel,
I'm drowning and I blame it all on you
I'm lost, please help me.
All i want is your care, love and your warmest hugs.
I'm waiting.

You always love to make up lies. I'm responsible for acting out scenes.
All the changes are so I could step into your world.
This scene has repeated a hundred times.
Only then I realised your heart is too wild.
You drew the border between us. I must not simply break the rules.
All my times have been prioritised for you.
Unknowingly, I'm so in love to the point that I dare not take any risks.
Having been your puppet for 1 year, (then) 2 years.
That's when I realised how pathetic I am.

A compromised love, still remains unresolved in the end.
Tied you up, not letting you fly away.
But history keeps repeating itself. I'm exhausted.
A compromised love, yet the story could not be written.
Once you made your ultimatum,
I hid in my own world.

You're just afraid of sleeping by yourself.
I no longer want to shed any more tears for you.
I understand, you will not change.
So, no more pondering, I shall begin tomorrow myself.?

♥ 12:11 PM